Don't worry, this isn't a "long lasting sadness" or "gloomy, depressed" melancholy. It's just a sad melancholy.
This morning I stared at Mr. Clark's back as he walked up our driveway towards his car. He called back over his shoulder, "Don't worry! I'll take care of my kids." Then he got in the pink station wagon, that Hannah calls the Barbie car, and they left for Indiana. My chest constricted and my heart raced and I admit, I cried a little. I prayed all day for safe travels for my beautiful family. It's hard not to worry when you're separated from loved ones and they're traveling for 8+ hours.
Bobby's cousin Matthew is getting married tomorrow evening and so Bobby took the older two with him for the big event. And to visit with his family that lives in Indiana. Amos and I stayed home for several reasons. The first (and main reason) being that I felt like two trips in one month would be too much for our little fellow. Second, the wedding is at 7 o'clock in the evening so I wouldn't be able to go anyway. And third, I didn't feel like packing a baby for another trip after I just got everything washed and put away from our last trip. I'm lazy like that.
I'm just sad to go so long without my handsome husband and sweet babies. And I'm sad to miss Matthew's wedding. James was my first favorite of Bobby's cousins and Matthew has been a close second. I remember when he was little and spent an entire summer with us. How is he old enough to get married?!
Anyway, after I pulled myself together, Amos & I set about getting some chores done. I changed the sheets on the kids bed, cleaned their toy boxes and finally got the home school shelves organized and their new books on them. While I worked Amos turned in circles and made messes as soon as I got the last one cleaned. When I was done I just sat in the floor and gazed at the clean fresh smelling room. I was glad that the cleanness would last longer than five minutes. Then Amos crawled over and climbed into my lap. We sat there together for a few minutes until he became restless for his lunch.
While Amos napped I worked on laundry and freshening up the kitchen. It's amazing how much you can get done when there aren't little hands and feet in the way. But then again it's amazing how long some tasks can take without my little helpers working beside me.
While I was working Tanika (Bobby's sister-in-law) called and invited me to supper. So we spent the evening with my father-in-law, Tommy, Tanika and Jeremy. I was thankful that they invited me over and saved me from having to cook. And for the company of course!
Bobby & the kids have arrived safely in Indiana and Amos is asleep.
The next few days are going to be filled with fun activities with my
parents. Then my lovelies will be home!
Not related to my post but here are some pics of our Sweet Williams that bloomed again this year w/o any care at all from me and my black thumb.
